Look Only to God

Sometimes this is harder to wrap your mind around than you'd like to admit. We all go through periods of trials and hardships, but it's what we do within those moments that matter most. Are you pushing God away, or are you using it to really trust in Him and lean on Him? This difficulty you're dealing with, you aren't alone. It may feel that way at times, but God has never left your side. He is the one thing in life that is so constant. It's actually quite beautiful how He can take such a broken moment in your life and use it to bring the two of you closer than ever.
You never have to worry about Him leaving you or giving up on you. All He asks is that you let Him in and trust His will for you life. You're in a hard place right now, but it's temporary. This too shall pass. I know it doesn't feel like you'll ever escape this broken feeling, but you will. As long as you keep your faith and trust in Him everything will work out for the better.